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Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Day 50 January 30th

            Why do I let my job and what the other people around me think affect me so much?  Everyone has a job, they have to, I’m told some people even like their jobs, and I don’t comprehend that at all.  Most of the people I know that “like” their jobs when asked if they would quit if they had enough money say yes.  This tells me that they are liars.  They are lying to themselves and they are lying to me.  If you wouldn’t do it if you didn’t need the money then how can you say that you actually enjoy what you are doing?  You can’t.  You work out of necessity just like most everyone else on the planet.  Now, if you can find your job tolerable and it’s the least horrible thing you can do for money then awesome, but that’s not the same as “liking” your job.
            What did any of that have to do with this diet I’m on or my health in general?  I don’t know but it did make me feel better to write it so that’s something, right? It doesn’t matter really since I’m mostly full of crap.
            Today was a long and mostly awful day full of meetings and paperwork.  I’ve recently come to the conclusion that I’m too close to my boss.  I have achieved a comfort level that has allowed me to talk to him in a way that maybe doesn’t show the proper amount of fear/respect one should show for their superiors.  We’re too familiar and it’s apparently getting in the way of work.  I need to back up and count to ten and think about things before I say them and try to keep our friendship to outside of work interaction.  We’ll see how that goes.
            I went to the track again today and walked 1.12 miles in a pathetic 22 min. time period and my legs still felt like they were going to fall off.  I don’t feel like I’ve lost any weight, but I haven’t weighed myself either since I’m afraid to find out.  I’ll go see the nutritionist on Friday and she’ll tell me something I’m sure.

Eric Anderson

P.S. Here’s what I ate on Day 50:
Breakfast: quinoa/egg casserole aka: quinoamelet
Lunch: sandwich, yogurt, nuts, and cheese
Snack: raw pumpkin and sunflower seeds and broccoli
Dinner: Pizza burger and broccoli

P.P.S. I’ve been trying to whittle down my 14,000+ digital picture library and I can’t seem to convince myself that just because I took the picture or my wife or kids are in them they are not necessarily gold.  I tend to take 15 shots of the same thing and try to pick out the, in my opinion, best one (I know what you’re thinking, anyone who has seen my pictures, that those are the best ones? Yes, yes they are) so that’s what’s going on with me anyway

Monday, January 30, 2012

Day 49 January 29th

            I woke up at 6:25, got up and slowly got ready for work, and then I went to work.  I think that working every day of this year (so far) is beginning to affect me psychologically because I’m starting to be shorter with people, not that these people didn’t deserve it (because they did).  I just don’t necessarily like the way it makes me feel.  Friday was a really hard day for me and Saturday wasn’t much better.  I don’t see much of a change coming for Sunday either.  I was told that I should let someone else take over my job on some of the weekends, but that would lazy and irresponsible and also it’s my job…so no.
            I skipped church again because I’m tired and I mostly am still avoiding human beings.  The family is back today from wherever they went so things are normal again.  I still feel awful and I’m super depressed and don’t feel like writing this.

Eric Anderson

P.S. Here’s what I ate on Day 49:

Breakfast: quinoamelet
Lunch: quesadillas
Dinner: pizza burger

Day 48 January 28th

Woke up late
Played on the computer
Got an angry text
Went to work
Yelled at some people
Went home
Drank some tea
Watched a lot of TV
Played on the computer some more
Ate some cheese
Watched a lot more TV
Took some pills
Went to sleep

Eric Anderson

P.S. Here’s what I ate on Day 48:
Breakfast, lunch, and dinner: Mary’s gone crackers, kefir cheese spread, mozz cheese, choc fiber bar thingies, a bunch of pills, and some yerba mate w/ green tea

P.P.S. the family “chef” (the wife) is out of town and I don’t know what to do with myself, hence the crackers and cheese

Friday, January 27, 2012

Day 47 January 27th

Today sucked…all the way around.  It’s not diet related so it’s not really worth talking about.  It just sucked.

Eric Anderson

P.S. Here’s what I ate on day 47:
Breakfast/ lunch: same
Dinner: chicken
Snack: raw pumpkin and sunflower seeds, mary’s gone crackers w/ kefir cheese spread

P.P.S. what? This post wasn’t long enough for you?

Day 46 January 26th

            It’s Thursday (I’ve made the decision to start telling you what day of the week it is when this is all happening because, I’m sure, you don’t own a calendar/computer/television/cell phone/star chart/ sundial [I don’t know if a sundial can tell the date or not]) and I’m feeling fantastic on this beautiful morning (<not sarcasm).  I woke up confused and stumbley but I snapped out of it and my headache is gone and so far I remember everyone’s name…so far.  I woke up in the middle of the night and my breathing hose was off of the mask and my finger was plugging the hole (probably because it’s very loud when unplugged).  The machine had a giant flashing warning saying that something was blocking the airflow (weird).  I had to unplug the box to reset the warnings and put it all back together and went back to sleep.  I do odd things in my sleep…ask my wife.
            It’s 8:52 and I’m just now drinking my yerba mate infused w/ ginger peach green tea (what? I don’t like coffee).  It is a little later than usual but I was quite busy this morning with employees and whatnot (they are a needy bunch).  I’ve been taking a new b-complex all week and it seems to have given me a little more energy (in the mornings anyway) than usual.  I hope it’s that, it could be something else.  I find that trying to stay positive gives me a little more energy too but that’s really hard to hang onto.  It could also be that I now go to the track every 3 days (okay I’ve gone twice now).  That would make today the day but it’s freakin’ cold and wet out there.  We’ll see.  I got some waterproof headphones, but that probably won’t help my iPod.  Okay, break time is over, time for work.  Our new boss is here today, this could be interesting…hope he’s nice.
            At about 11:15 I crashed again but I couldn’t eat anything until 12 because of the cleanse (no food before or 30 minutes after taking the pills and drops).  After lunch I don’t feel that much better. I don’t know what’s wrong with me.
            Went home, didn’t go walking, watched TV, ate dinner, got ready for work, and went to bed…late.

Eric Anderson

P.S. Here’s what I ate on Day 46:
Breakfast: same
Lunch: same
Dinner: pizza burger
Snack: mary's gone crackers w/ kefir cheese spread            

Thursday, January 26, 2012

Eric and the Hypochondria - 5 part trilogy (what, does Douglas Adams own that?)

writer's note: This has all been documented in another blog, I just thought it would be appropriate to be here as well since it's health related.  If you have already read this before then please skip it, there's no need to do that to yourself again.  Also, I still haven't proofread i guess

P.S. I know that this makes me look like a crazy person.  I guess I am a crazy person.  proceed

Eric and the Hypochondria
It's my third day and I already seriously considered quitting. I had a topic in mind that I've wanted to write about for about six months now, but just didn't think I could give it my best shot today.  So I came up with some others and didn't feel them either then decided I didn't want to do this anymore.  No offense to everyone out there reading this but I'm starting to feel some pressure to write something good and I don't how to do that.  I know you're expecting some God talk and I should really learn some more before I start going there.
I've been scared for about 3 months(or maybe even longer) that I'm going to die.  I know there's something wrong with me I just don't know how serious it is or what to do about it.  I know the first thing I need to do is lose weight( that's the topic I planned for today, maybe tomorrow).  I went to the Dr. in november and he put me on blood pressure medicine and prozac, and sent me to a sleep clinic to get a breathing machine.  That all worked pretty well until mid december when I started kidney pain and weird tingling warmth would wash over my body.  So I went back and he said it wasn't my kidney is was just my back. Okay fine I'm a hypochondriac with an iPhone.  2 weeks later my chest starts hurting so I go back and he does a ekg(or whatever they do when they make you take your shirt off and stick probes on you).  He said that was fine but sent me to a cardiologist(Awesome).  I went to that guy and I was the youngest person in the whole building I'm sure.  He says I'm probably alright, but he wants a stress test and an echo(great more taking my shirt off, I don't even take my shirt off to shower...just kidding, but it does suck).  This whole process is about a month long, during which the weird tingly warmth was still affecting me while I was trying to sleep, but it turns out my hearts fine and they don't want to see me again for 30 years.  That whole month I was on google every day and diagnosed myself with GERD or acid reflux.  I called the Dr. and he prescribed some stuff. Everything was good again...for about a week.
I started getting headaches or really just a strange pressure in my head that seemed to be affecting my speech but I was the only one who could hear the difference.  I mostly ignored this until last friday when it started getting really bad.  It comes and goes and google says it could be anything from anxiety to a tumor and a whole mess of crap in the middle.  Did I mention that I wake up and both arms will be numb even though I'm sleeping on my back.  I woke up at 4 am this morning and I felt the pressure in the center of my skull pushing down and tingling all over my body.  I get up and it's fine.  I barely notice the pressure most of the days now but if I sit down it'll usually start to get to me.  I know it's weird.
I know I should call the Dr. but I'm sure he's pretty sick of me and all the money I've thrown at him since early november.  I know hypochondriacs and they are sooooo annoying, I just don't want to be that person, but I know that there is something wrong with me and if I could just figure it out I would be happier.  It's really all I can think about which is why this is the post you're getting today instead of my battle with food addiction, although they may be related, who knows?

Eric Anderson

Eric and the Hypochondria II
I’m not crazy, I swear, although I guess that might be something a crazy person would say.  Last time I brought up this subject I was waiting on a doctor’s appointment, so about 4 ½ weeks ago.  I went to see the doctor that Monday and explained the whole headache/head pain situation.  He said that it can’t be sinuses because there are no sinuses in that part of your skull.  He didn’t think it was a tumor but just to be sure he scheduled me for an MRI on Thursday (Thursday!?! Really, Doc?!  I could be dead by Thursday, my head hurts now!). So I carried on for four days and worried and prayed (sort of, prayer is not my strongest point).  Thinking what if I can’t fit in the MRI machine, what if it is a tumor, what if it isn’t, what else could it be, what if it’s worse, what does Google have to say about all of this?
Thursday comes and the headache is still there so I go to the hospital and wait…and wait…and wait…I hear people talking in the hall about calling a repairman and something’s wrong and this has never happened before and frantic whispering that I can’t understand and I wait…2 hours later the tech comes out and apologizes to me and the other people waiting with me.  He explained the machine broke down and they had to call the fix it guy and blah blah blah it’ll be 15 more minutes.  Awesome, it’s not like I have a job to be at or anything.  I know it’s not his fault but someone could have at least let us know what was going on.  So I get in the room and I have to remove all metal from my person (glasses, wedding ring [which was really hard to get off], etc…).  As I had suspected it was somewhat difficult to jam my fat ass into the tiny little tube but there’s little I can do about that right now.  If you’ve never been inside an MRI machine you should know that it’s very loud and, for me anyway, very cramped.  I get out after 20 minutes or what felt like 3 days and try my best to interpret what the pictures mean while I put my shoes, glasses, and coat back on.  The tech looks at me and says “are you alright?” to which I respond “not really”.  Then he tells me I should call the dr. and ask him to call the hospital and examine the results, but today is dr. jones’ day off so I know that I have to wait.
The next day was donate blood day at work, something that I’ve never done before but I don’t have a problem with needles and I’ve always been under the assumption that getting rid of some old blood is good for you(who knows).  When you donate blood you have to fill out quite a bit of paperwork and answer a bunch of questions about your history, medical and otherwise.  The first question they ask is “do you feel healthy?” wow, is that a good question? No but it’s just my brain so it should be alright, right?  The dr.’s office called me about noon and Lane told me that the results came out clean.  No tumor, no signs of MS (what I wasn’t even worried about that, now I am), everything’s good. Great, awesome, that’s the best news I’ve heard all…wait, what the hell is wrong with me?  The dr. said a little bit of sinusitis showed up so I should take antibiotics and come back in week or so.  I thought he said my sinuses weren’t in that part of the skull.  They’re not, but just take the medicine. Fine, so I took the antibiotics for ten days and on the tenth day I went back to the doctor.
I told him that I thought the headache was 75% better at that point but I could still feel the irritation if I thought about it. Here’s an idea, don’t think about it.  Easier said than done, doc.  He decided to change my blood pressure medicine and see what happens in a month.  I was skeptical to say the least, but he’s the doctor.  Also, he said that it can’t be a pinched nerve because they don’t affect your brain.  Fine, just shoot down all my theories (and the theories of all the “doctors” I work with).  Four days and 3000 Google searches later I decide that the Prilosec has to be the problem.  I call the dr. and let him know what I’ve discovered and he tell me “fine, stop taking it”.  So I stopped taking it, and it’s been about a week and ½ and the headache/ head pain thing is all but gone( I can still kind of feel something but I’m just hoping it’s going to go away eventually).  Yesterday I woke up and it was back and worse than it ever was before.  I’ll give you my theories on that later.

Eric Anderson
Eric and the Hypochondria III
I’m writing this post immediately after finishing the last one so you should definitely read it first(and probably part one as well if you even care a little about this craziness making any sense, and even then it probably won’t).
So yesterday I wake up and my head hurts in the same spot it did before only worse and I’m freaking out.  Could it be my teeth, or even my jaw, could it be an ear infection(my ears did hurt a little bit, and my balance has been off for a while).  I’ve got all these questions and I’m growing more concerned by the second(all of this thinking and worrying is happening in the shower by the way, quiet time is the enemy).  I get out of the shower and go into the living room where I sit down to check to see what the almighty Google knows about my problem.  Then the right side of my face gets really hot like I’m close to a fire or heater.  This does not help the freaking out.  What the hell is wrong with me?  My right eye also seems a little blurry while the left one is working fine.  Also the head pain is on the right side so maybe that’s affecting my vision. I don’t know.
I get to work and start googling some more(only on my breaks, of course[my boss reads this]).  I knew a guy who recently died of a very rare disease call Creutzfeld-Jakob disease(CJD, pronounced KROITS-felt YA-kob).  He’s actually one of the founders of the company I work for and he was an awesome dude, the smartest person I’ve ever known.  The disease is not known to be contagious but it’s so rare how can they know for sure, right.  So I look up the symptoms and, as is usually the case with the diseases I look up,  I have at least 5 of the symptoms.  Depression. Check. Memory loss. Check. Personality changes. Check. Speech impairement. Sort of.  Balance and coordination dysfunction. Check.  So I don’t have dementia, seizures, or hallucination…yet.  Obviously, I don’t want this disease(because it’s fatal in like 6 months or something) and I know I’m being paranoid because I know someone who had it.  I’ve tried to think about what I did Monday that’s different than any other day but is the same as what I was doing 3 weeks ago.  This morning in the shower something came to me
This is just a theory and it will sound crazy but here goes.  I was eating quinoa for breakfast every day for like 2 weeks( all during the time when the head pain was the worst).  Then I quit and started eating oatmeal because I was worried about my cholesterol(200).  That’s when the head pain went down to a 1 from a 4 or 5.  Monday night we ate quinoa for dinner(the first time I’ve had it since I quit eating it for breakfast).   So as best I can figure the only thing I did differently was eat something everyone says is the greatest, most healthy food ever made.  What? Ok, maybe it’s like pomegranate juice, that stuff makes me feel nauseous every time I drink it but I keep doing it because it is awesome and allegedly awesome for me.  My theory on the pomegranate juice has always been, maybe the juice is killing something bad in my and it doesn’t like it so it makes me sick.  If I apply this same theory to the ever-present head pain then I can assume that the head pain is being irritated by whatever is in the quinoa and it doesn’t like it.  Now I realize that the head pain is just a symptom and not the actual problem so it doesn’t make sense that everyone keeps telling me just to stop eating quinoa if I want the pain to go away.  I don’t want the pain to go away, I want the cause of the pain to go away.
Today my head is back to the 1 again and I still don’t know what else to do.  I quit the Prilosec so the heartburn is back and worse than before.  I’m going to try eating garlic cloves and drinking apple cider vinegar and baking soda(read it on the internet).   Have a nice day

Eric Anderson

Eric and the Hypochondria IV
I’m only writing this because I love roman numerals.  I know it’s been a while, over a month actually, but I’ve got an excuse, I’m lazy and my head still hurts but much less because I solved the problem.  Me, all by myself and the doctors think I’m crazy, which may well be true but it works so screw ‘um.  If you’ve been following this thing then you know that I over analyze everything I do and how it affects me and what it all means.  So I have to apologize to quinoa because I unjustly accused it of causing this thing and it was not true at all.  I’ve narrowed down this headache thing to grinding/clenching teeth I hope, but that’s not the best news.  I accidentally figured out that either B12 or B3 (niacin) will make my headache go away (for the most part anyway). 
Every day, I evaluate how I feel and what may or may not be causing the good or bad feelings of that particular moment.  I would watch my diet, environment, and stress levels to see what could be helping or hurting me and I noticed that when I took this B12 complex my headaches would go away longer than usual.  I examined B12 deficiencies and didn’t think that was possible since my blood had been checked several different times this year.  I looked at the ingredients and noticed that niacin was one of them and remembered the people at work noticing that my face was red and thinking I had a fever when it was just the natural reaction of niacin to the blood.  I immediately googled niacin + migraines and discovered that there is considerable evidence to suggest that niacin may help migraine sufferers but there have been no actual tests to prove this to be fact.
I told my doctor, neurologist, dentist, friends, coworkers, family, and anyone else that would pay any attention to me.  Pretty much everyone thinks I’m nuts and there’s no way that this should be working, but I promise that it make the headaches about 85% better.  My doctor told me to quit taking the migraine medicine that he prescribed just to prove that I was wrong and he was right but 4 days without the medicine and the niacin still seems to be awesome.  Anyway, I just wanted to let anyone who cared about these posts know what has been happening for the last month.  Later

Eric Anderson

Eric and The Hypochondria V
                Okay, I might have been a tiny bit overly cocky in my last post (Eric and The Hypochondria IV 5/14/11) about having “solved” the problem with my skull pain.  That was a little bit of an exaggeration but it is still 85% better than it was in February and March.  In the last four months I’ve mostly stuck with the niacin solution I accidentally discovered and it’s been okay.  I tested it a few times by not taking it for a day or two and the pain came back strong.  The headache is still only on the right side on the top of my head with the occasional shooting pain in various other spots of my skull.  I finally decided to go back to the doctor in mid-august just to see if there was anything else he could offer.  He’s kind of stumped and I’m still kind of scared.
                He decided to put me on muscle relaxers, because he’s always believed that this is probably a stress headache and he wants me to chill.  He also took another x-ray to see if the original sinusitis was gone and I haven’t been getting enough radiation in my day to day life.  I started taking the muscle relaxers at night before I went to bed and they did a really good job of making me even less functional at my job than before.  After a few days of that the doctor called and said I do still have some sinusitis and he wants me to take antibiotics twice a day for a month.  The headaches were getting better so I continued with the muscle relaxers and took the whole month’s supply of antibiotics.  For that whole month the headaches were 99% gone with the occasional fleeting achiness in my head. 
                Now I’m out of antibiotics, but I’m still taking the muscle relaxers that make me feel awful all day every day.  If it’s the antibiotics that were making me feel better then I should be able to stop the muscle relaxers.  I tried that for one day and the headaches came back.  So now I’ve been without the antibiotics for about a week and I feel the headache today, but maybe it’s just paranoia.  Either it’s stress or sinusitis or a brain tumor or any of the million different things that Google has taught me about this year.  I don’t know, maybe I need surgery on my skull.

Eric Anderson

Day 45 January 25th

            It’s Wednesday, the middle of the week (if there has to be a middle of the week anyway, this is it), as Wednesdays usually go I woke up groggy and confused about where I was what I was doing…with my life mostly.  It really shouldn’t make a difference what day it is since I haven’t had a day off this year although some people argue, mostly my overworked employees, that since I only work a couple of hours on Saturday and Sunday that doesn’t count as work.  I strongly disagree because just the act of having to set an alarm and wake up earlier than I would like and drag my fat ass into this place where dreams go to die is work no matter how long I spend here. (I love my job, I love my job, I love my job, I love my job, I love my job…)(am I lying to you or myself or both or neither?)
            I had a decent amount of energy this morning to get the things done that I needed to get done but don’t feel as awesome as I think I should feel 45 days into a cleansing diet.  My headache is back, I don’t know if I’ve ever mentioned my headache in this blog, but I’ve got 5 posts about it on the other one that pretty much explain that I’m a psychopath…okay I’ve decided to repost them…you don’t have to read them…just skip those posts…or I’ll just post them as one really long post…why am I talking about this like you have any say in the matter?) 
            I felt okay until about 2:45 when I started to get super tired but it wasn’t as bad as yesterday or the other days before it.  So that’s good news…I’m not as hungry today as I usually am at this time of day so maybe my body is just trying to confuse me.
            I went home and got in an argument with a DIRECTV representative, where I may have been a little rude and possible louder than I should have, about the fact that they have us in a two year contract where we have to pay them for a service, but they don’t have to deliver it unless I pay them $50 for a tech to come out and look at the reason our box is freezing up.  They kept trying to push a $6 a month extra charge that would cover any possible service fees, so I yelled, told them no and hung up.  The reason I’m bringing this up is because I don’t think it’s been good for my blood pressure/stress level.
            I decided to ignore those people and ate dinner.  We watched the next to last episode of “American horror story” (that’s just weird for the sake of being weird…the show not me…I’m weird with purpose).  Then we went to bed and I wasn’t as hungry as the day before but I did feel pretty gross inside.  I need to find high protein snacks that are also healthy.  I need to order so raw organic pumpkin/sunflower seeds.  Maybe after the income tax return.

Eric Anderson

P.S. Here’s what I ate on Day 45:
Breakfast/ lunch: same
Snack: chocolate fiber bar
Dinner: pizza burger

P.P.S. I don’t care how gross this is, but it is not natural for a grown ass man to have to urinate every 30 minutes…I need to go to a doctor, I’m sure of it.

P.P.P.S. people keep asking me what I'm allowed to eat.  I know I've posted this before, but here it is again, enjoy:

P.P.P.P.S. If that was too boring for you here's the closest thing I'll ever get to a family photo:

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Day 44 January 24th

            I woke up sleepy after waking up like 10 times in the middle of the night (this is fairly recent for me…I’ve been sleeping all night since the breathing machine over a year ago [I need to get that thing looked at]).  I was pretty hungry this morning but it wasn’t overwhelming.  I feel pretty good this morning and I have a decent amount of energy (which is to say that I don’t feel like crap…right now…yet).  My ankles and legs are still kind of sore (what is that all about?) and that sucks.  I think I need to make myself go to the track every day but the problem is that every time I do this I’ll go every day until I make myself sick and then I’ll quit…forever.
            This morning I was walking around checking on things and I had a song stuck in my head but I couldn’t remember the name of the band.  This wouldn’t be a big deal but it was a band that I love and have loved since 2004 and I knew every word to the song.  I was straining my brain to remember the name of the band and it finally came to me but that can’t be good right? (it was the killers by the way…don’t judge me…they are awesome).  About 3 hours later I was telling a story about a coworker (someone that I’ve worked with for at least 5 years if not more) to one of my employees and I couldn’t remember his name but I could describe him and then I strained so hard that my head started to hurt right behind my forehead and I finally remembered.  These have to be symptoms of something horrible, right? Also, some evidence of my brain damage is that I titled the last to posts here the 22st and the 23st (what is that all about?)(also, they have been corrected now).  I need a brain scan or something.
            It’s 11:41 right now, at 11:15 I started feeling awful and my whole body just started hurting.  This has got to be a blood sugar thing…or something like that…I don’t think depression just hits for no reason at certain times of the day…does it?
            I ate lunch and felt better for a couple of hours and then I crashed again…hard…this sucks…time for some more raw broccoli.  Alright, I feel better now.  Maybe I need to carry around a bag of raw broccoli with me everywhere I go (gross).  It’s raining…should I attempt going to the track in the rain?  It would probably be bad for my iPhone (which I use to track my movements along with the Nike sensor in my shoe)
            I decided not to go to the track in the rain, partly because it’s winter, and mostly because I’m lazy (and tired…and I feel gross…everywhere). We got home and played with the kids for a little while then ate dinner (at a table…together…this is pretty new for us, but I like it).  After dinner we sat down to watch a DVRed episode of HOUSE.  In the first 5 minutes a dude couldn’t remember the name of the can opener but he knew how to describe what it did.  I was like; hey that same thing happened to me today.  That guy had Alzheimer’s.  I know what you’re thinking, that’s just a TV show…a TV show based in some reality…I know that I’m too young to have Alzheimer’s except in pretty rare cases but these things still scare me and I still don’t know what’s wrong with me.

Eric Anderson

P.S. Here’s what I ate on Day 44:
Breakfast: same
Lunch: same (new bread though, still gross)
Dinner: Chicken and broccoli

P.P.S. I can’t remember what I was going to write here.

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Day 43 January 23rd

            I woke up 10 minutes early today with an insane amount of unwarranted energy.  Why do I feel so awake and alert? Is it the “exercise” I did…3 day ago?  My butt (muscle) still hurts and my legs are sore.  This is really sad (how out of shape I must be).  I did consume more caffeine than usual yesterday and also a crap-ton of B-complex.  I don’t know maybe it’s a combination of all three things. I forgot to mention that I weighed myself yesterday and nothing has changed.  I’m holding steady at about a million pounds (350…it’s still really bad and unhealthy but I thought I would make it sound better in contrast to the exaggeration…did it work? No? okay, fair enough)
            I didn’t get much sleep last night.  I don’t know why but at first it was hard for me to fall asleep because I kept thinking about whether or not the boy was breathing and contemplated getting up to check but instead just prayed he would be okay and then he started crying and my wife started cursing under her breath.  I felt kind of bad because I thought I might have had something to do with that but then I dismissed it and went to sleep. I didn’t even have a cause to be concerned about him other than just the regular stuff, like statistics of children up and dying for no apparent reason.  I remember when the girl was a baby I would check on her about 5 times a night until she was like 5 (that’s years not months…I’m kind of nuts).  I never check on the boy though even though I am rather attached to him.  Maybe I’m just more relaxed because the girl made it to six just fine (physically anyway).  I don’t know.
            It’s weird that I’m not really feeling like crap right now, at 11:30, and I don’t know what to do with that.  I’m sure it’s coming.
            Okay, it’s 3:30 now and I feel awful again.  That’s more like it, familiar is good, right?  I’ve been invited to the track once again and I guess I should go because it’s got to be good for me (can’t hurt anymore anyway).  Blech…
            Are you bored yet? Still? Whatever…it’s 5:00 and I feel better after eating some celery, tomatoes, and broccoli (all raw without any sort of dressing, because that’s how I do it)
            I got off work at 6:00 and got to the track a little after 6:30.  I walked a pathetic 4 laps in about 20 minutes.  I was barely pushing myself (which is still quite slow…seriously, everyone was passing me) and my ankles and calves hurt so bad that I had to stop.  I don’t know what the crap my problem was but apparently I need to attempt this more often.  It hurts
            We went home and ate a late dinner (like 8:00 or something like that) and finished watching “the ides of march” (awesome movie if you’re into that sort of thing, which I totally am.  Also it was kind of depressing to think that that’s how our political system works…whatever, what can you do).  I went to bed still super hungry but that’s okay (maybe the “exercise” made me hungry, doubt it)

Eric Anderson

P.S. Here’s what I ate on Day 43:
Breakfast: sameness
Lunch: “sandwich” w/ gluten & yeast free “bread”, kefir cheese spread, tomato, and chicken.  Plain yogurt w/ cinnamon and stevia. Blueberries, raw nuts (almonds & walnuts) mozz cheese stick
Dinner: feta stuffed chicken breast w broccoli

P.P.S. maybe I am depressed, I don’t know, I mean I know I am depressed but maybe that is what’s causing this unexplained horribleness that I feel most of the time.  I’ve read the exercise is the best way to battle depression so maybe I should try some of that.  They say that “60% of the time it works every time” (Ron Burgundy! Woot!)

Monday, January 23, 2012

Day 42 January 22nd

            My butt hurts (the muscles)…from walking…slowly…two day ago…what the hell?  This is a clear demonstration of how totally out of shape I am.  I used to view walking as being a pointless waste of time unless I pushed myself until I couldn’t breathe anymore and passed out on the track.  Maybe I should reconsider this as being a useful activity.
            I woke up at 6:25 and went to work for 2 hours…again. I love my job so much (<again, sarcasm).  I got home right as my parents were pulling out of the driveway with my wife and kids on their way to church, which I’m still hiding from because the thought of seeing other human beings still gives me a miniature panic attack.  I mean, what if they want to talk to me…in person…with words…out loud…no thanks.
            Today was a good day, I didn’t feel nearly as awful as usual, although I did have a massive ginormous headache the first half of the day, but I think that was because I reduced my caffeine intake the day before.  I quickly rectified that by drinking a giant cup of black tea (the strongest tea I can get my hands on).  That fixed it.  I’m still sore but in a good way.  My friend invited me to go with her to the track again but I blew her off because I’m an idiot who doesn’t seem to realize what’s good for him.
            I went to bed a little after 10:00 but I wanted to stay up to finish a movie that I’m in love with now (ides of march).  I decided it would be better to go to bed because I have a job and I’m a responsible member of society (and I can finish it tomorrow).

Eric Anderson

P.S. Here’s what I ate on Day 42:
Breakfast: same
Lunch: same
Dinner: pizza burger

P.P.S. we fed the boy rice cereal for the first time and he didn’t seem to enjoy it very much.  Maybe next time

Day 41 January 21st

            On this beautiful Saturday morning I woke up at 6:25am after I also woke up at 5:00am (because my brain hates me soooooo much) and couldn’t sleep for 30 minutes (Dammit!)  I went to work for 2 hours just to get some junk done for…you know…work.  Then it was time for 2 worst words in the English language when forced together…Shopping Trip (I hate places, especially places with people in them, but it was necessary and mostly my idea so I couldn’t complain).
            I felt sore all over (really? From walking? Slowly? What is wrong with me?) And I also felt tired and again awful (just totally drained).  I wasn’t hungry so I don’t think this is food related.  It is truly the worst feeling in the world (according to my limited experience with horrible feelings that is).  I think that I must be really sick.  Maybe I have diabetes or something much worse (probably the latter).  I thought that going on this diet would help and at first it really did but that was probably all psychological. 
            I fell asleep in the car on the way to fort worth and on the way back (something that I haven’t done since 2010 when I started sleeping with the breathing machine) this leads me to believe that either the machine has stopped working properly or I’m dying.  I also felt like crap at every store we visited (4 stores in about 4 hours, which is quite a quick trip for us, but we are extremely broke…so there’s that)

Eric Anderson

P.S. Here’s what I ate on Day 41:
Breakfast: quinoamelet (my word, don’t try to look it up)
Lunch: chocolate fiber bar thingie
Super late lunch: quesadillas w/ corn tortillas, chicken, mozz cheese.  “mary’s gone crackers” w/ kefir cheese spread
Dinner: Steak & Broccoli

P.P.S. today was suck

Day 40 January 20th

            I feel pretty great this morning…sort of…too good to be at work anyway.  My pants feel looser and someone told me that my face looks thinner and has more color (not sure how to take that), but I continue to not lose any weight.  I really don’t want to go walking tonight…maybe she’ll forget…probably not…I’ll let you know.
            As the day progressed I felt more and more awful (the awful feeling that I keep talking about but never describing is hard to explain.  It’s like my entire body feels drained and sore on the inside for no reason.  I just feel gross but not sickly…is that a good enough explanation?).  By the time I got off work I felt like I could just collapse.
            She didn’t forget…Yay! (<sarcasm)…we went to the track and walked for 30 minutes.  I walked 5 laps which is allegedly 1.3 miles.  I didn’t really feel like exercise because we were talking and the kids were there so we stopped a lot but we’ll see how I feel tomorrow (I already know because this is being written 3 days later)

Eric Anderson

P.S. Here’s what I ate on day 40:
Breakfast: same
Lunch: same
Dinner: pizza burger and broccoli (I think)

P.P.S. still feel awful

Friday, January 20, 2012

Day 39 January 19th

            I got up this morning in a daze after dreaming all night about work and how much I hate that place (dreams suck and I didn’t even take a cold shower last night so what the hell?)  This was a very long horrible day where I couldn’t focus on anything at all and every part of my body felt sore.  Why? I have no idea.  I have been feeling dizzy and light headed off and on for a couple of months or probably more.  Today I felt foggy and dazed and I couldn’t concentrate on anything I was trying to tell people.  I couldn’t remember where I was going with the points I was trying to make and people were staring at me like I was a senile old man.  I have employees that actually need to hear the things that I need to say to them and the decisions I’m supposed to make about them but I’m just staring at them and drawing a blank.  What is wrong with me?  This can’t all be diet related, right?
            A coworker wants me to go walking with her tomorrow night, so I guess that might be when the exercise starts.  We’ll see if I actually make it to that “event”.
            Have you ever taken a shower and the mirrors weren’t fogged after you were finished?  I just did.  I was on full blast cold with no hot infused at all.  It was so cold that I could feel my skin going numb.  I thought it would help wake me up and it seems to have worked a little bit, but I still feel like crap for the most part.  Hopefully it won’t kill me (the cold shower).  If you reading this then chances are I survived the night.
            Okay, I felt quite a bit better after I took the cold shower and B-complex sublingual (don’t know which helped, maybe both, maybe neither)  I was more a awake and able to get ready for bed and all that junk without passing out.  I still feel less than awesome.

Eric Anderson

P.S. Here’s what I ate on Day 39:
Guess what? Same as yesterday.

P.P.S. I can barely write this thing let alone tack on some funny crap at the end.

Thursday, January 19, 2012

Day 38 January 18th

            Taking cold showers right before bed is making me have weird ass dreams.  Last night’s dream was about work so I don’t really want to talk about it but trust me it was crazy weird.  The dream the night before was really weird too but less weird and it was about the school my daughter attends and the administration so I shouldn’t talk about it either.  I don’t know if the cold shower is the cause or I’m just going nuts.  
            Today was a super tiring day and I just didn’t want to be at work or anywhere else for that matter.  I’m getting hungrier but not so hungry I can’t handle it.  I just feel groggy and lethargic and my bones still hurt.  My mom went to see the nutritionist and she said that it’s okay that I haven’t lost any weight because my fat is turning into muscle.  I don’t really know how that works when I haven’t done anything in the way of exercise.  She has a machine that checks muscle vs. fat.  I have to stand barefoot on this scale with metal pads and hold these metal handles that shoot electricity through my body and measure something that I don’t quite understand.
            I was so tired tonight. No cold shower. Bedtime

Eric Anderson

P.S. Here’s what I ate on Day 38:
Same as yesterday except for dinner which was chicken and broccoli

P.P.S. something something so tired

Day 37 January 17th

            Today I had more energy when I woke up and I was having a very strange dream that I probably shouldn’t talk about but definitely will…tomorrow (or probably not).  I love Tuesdays, they are awesome, don’t ask me why because I don’t know.  Today was better than yesterday but I still feel really unmotivated.
            Diet stuff: I weighed myself and I lost 0.02 pounds this year (I’m about to grab my chain and head for some rafters).  I was really hungry today but I didn’t eat anything extra and went to bed still hungry.  I need to cut down on carbs I guess (tortillas, “crackers”, quinoa, etc…), that will be hard.
            I took another cold shower tonight and it seemed much colder than last night, maybe because it’s colder outside tonight.

Eric Anderson

P.S. Here’s what I ate on Day 37:
Same as yesterday

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Day 36 January 16th

            I woke up at 5:26 after about 6 hours of sleep so my day will be fantastic (if you ever notice a tense change in these things it’s because sometimes I start writing it as it’s happening and then I’ll finish it the next morning and sometimes I just write it straight through…depends on my mood)
            I’ve decided that I’m an extremely angry person who probably needs therapy (this is based on the fact that everything and everyone is annoying me this morning, maybe I just need more sleep).
            I felt awful all day today, I didn’t weigh myself, and I was hungry.  I decided to take a cold shower tonight because I read about the health benefits (better circulation, more energy, relieves depression, better for you skin and hair, strengthens immunity, and increases testosterone…also, it save on water because I want to get the hell out of there).  I didn’t start out with a straight cold shower because I’m a wuss, I turned the water on cold all the way up and turned the hot on as well, but that water wasn’t even the tiniest bit warm, not even room temperature.  It was cold enough that I wouldn’t drink it (I don’t drink cold water…ever).  I got out in about 9 minutes (which may sound long for some people but I usually take like a 25 minute shower).  After I got out I read some more about it and found out that if you have high blood pressure it could give you a stroke (whoops…I’m on medication so it’s not high anymore…I hope)

Eric Anderson

P.S. Here’s what I ate on day 36:
Breakfast: standard
Lunch: same thing I eat every work day
Dinner: Pizza burger (fancy way of saying hamburger patty w/ spaghetti sauce and mozz cheese on it…oh yeah and olives) and broccoli

P.P.S. I wrote this on Wednesday because I don’t feel like writing anymore

Monday, January 16, 2012

Day 35 January 15th

            Today is my seventh anniversary of being married to my beautiful wife, Charlotte.  It sucks that we are too poor to do anything but it’s okay because we at least have an adorable baby boy to show for our decision to be poor.  I love you Charlotte.
            I woke up at 6:25 again after waking up several times in the middle of the night, because my brain hates me.  I went to work and decided to try to get caught up on some junk that really really needs to be finished.  I decided to skip church again because there are still other humans there and I still don’t like other humans (they scare me).  I’m thinking about starting my own church where I’m the only member (not really, I wouldn’t know what to say to myself).  Worktime!!!!! Stop distracting me.
            Okay, I’m back, today was not the most horrible day ever, I felt better but not good enough to say “good”.  I got off work at about 11:30; I’m still not finished so that’ll be good for me to get “talked down to” tomorrow.  I deserve it; I really do suck at this.
            A friend let me borrow “the shack”.  My mom has been trying to get me to read it since, I don’t know, when did it come out?  Says here 2007 so I guess a week after that.  I’m sure that she’s really happy that someone else has convinced me to read it.  I guess I could say that she “loosened the jar” and my friend just got it open.  I don’t know what I’m talking about.
            I don’t feel like I’m losing any weight.  I haven’t been weighing myself, although I think Monday will start being my weekly date so that I can monitor if I’m making any progress on this thing.  Even when I was on the diet where I lost the 70 pounds, I never felt like I was losing any weight so maybe my brain just hates me.  I guess I’ll find out tomorrow if I’ve lost anything.
            Tonight I wasn’t hungry at all and it was hard for me to eat my dinner even though it was quite good.  I have however been hungry the last few nights before so I don’t know what my deal is.  This sucks. I’m going to read a book.

Eric Anderson

P.S. Here’s what I ate on Day 35:
Breakfast: quinoa, egg, cheese, broccoli, tomatoes, and olive oil casserole
Lunch: same as yesterday minus the yogurt
Dinner: chicken and broccoli

P.P.S.  I went bed at 11:30 because it’s my anniversary and I’m dumb.  Tomorrow will be a sleepy day.

Sunday, January 15, 2012

Day 34 January 14th

            I woke up at 6:25 after going to bed at 9:50 (a little over 8 hours, that’s nice).  I still feel awful but it’s not a sick awful.  It’s a drained awful that makes my whole body feel like it just fall over at any second.  Even sitting down hurts my legs and back.  Also, weirdly enough my right index finger hurts (no idea why that is happening).  I worked for 4 ½ hours this morning and went home and just sat there watching TV and wondering where I went wrong with my life.  I had a long Facebook discussion with my friend Amy about judging people (I still don’t know if it’s okay or not).  I went to bed a little after 10:00 when I started to get energy and felt like doing something creative and productive with my life, but I have to work every single day for the rest of my life so I went to bed and laid there trying to go to sleep.  My finger hurt too badly to sleep and the radio was too loud and there were people outside of our house screaming about who knows what and everything was distracting me.  I guess we’ll see how tomorrow goes

Eric Anderson

P.S. Here’s what I ate on Day 34:
Breakfast: same
Lunch: chicken quesadillas w/ mozz cheese and corn tortillas, yogurt, mary’s gone crackers w/ kefir cheese spread
Dinner: hamburger patties w/ mozz. Cheese, black olives, spaghetti sauce, and steamed broccoli

P.S.  I have been peeing way too much lately.  Anyone got any ideas why? Other than I drink too much water

Day 33 January 13th

            I woke up with a ginormous headache after 5 ½ hours of sleep.  This was an awful day that sucked from the minute I woke up until I passed out at 9:50.  My bones hurt and I didn’t have any energy or motivation to do anything at all. I don’t know what to do about this.  It’s either severe depression, I’m bi polar, or I have some disease that’s killing me on the inside.  Whatever it is I don’t feel like typing.

Eric Anderson

P.S. Here’s what I ate on Day 33:
Breakfast: quinoa egg omelet
Lunch: sames as befores
Dinner: chicken that was in a crock pot for 5 hours with various seasonings (it was good) w/ broccoli

P.P.S.  I might be dying

Friday, January 13, 2012

Day 32 January 12th

            My sleep was sort of interrupted by a rude baby, but what can you really do about that (do they make duct tape for sensitive skin? Just kidding…mostly).  I was hungry all day today for some reason that I can’t understand.  I think my body is angry with me.  I still feel sick and I’m super tired but not sleepy.  My bones feel like they’re sore and I’m pretty sure they are dissolving inside of me (probably not, but maybe).  I went to bed at 11:30 tonight so I guess I’m dumb.

Eric Anderson

P.S. Here’s what I ate on Day 32:
Breakfast: quinoa and egg casserole (that’s what I’ve decided to name it, but it’s the same thing I eat every morning)
Lunch: same
Dinner: hamburger patties w/ mozz cheese spaghetti sauce and olives and broccoli
Snack: mary’s gone crackers and kefir cheese spread

Thursday, January 12, 2012

Day 31 January 11th

            I woke up at 4:45 and then went back to sleep and woke up at 5:25 after going to bed a little after 10:30.  Today has been pretty awful all day; I don’t have any idea what the crap is wrong with me.  I have absolutely zero desire to write anything and I’m hungry and tired and groggy and kind of stuffed up (but not quite sick)…still
            Not to sound any more alarmist and hypochondriacal than usual but I wonder if I’m bi polar (just a little bit). The highs are high-ish and the lows are low-ish, but the change in feeling doesn’t really make any sense to me without calling it a disease of some sort.
            Like I said I was pretty hungry all day and I felt tired and more unmotivated than usual.  I might need to see a shrink.  I went to sleep before 10:15 (which was potentially pretty awesome), but was awakened by a screaming baby at 11:30 or so and laid there listening to him scream for 20 – 30 minutes before I got up to investigate (he was fine).  I went back to bed and I’m sure tomorrow will suck.  While I was lying in bed my head started hurting in the same place it always hurt and I felt tingly and warm all over in a way that always makes me think that this is the end.  I don’t know what’s wrong with me.

Eric Anderson

P.S. Here’s what I ate on Day 31:
Breakfast: my favorite part of the day and it was awesome also the same thing I eat every day
Lunch: the worst part of my day because of the awful “sandwich”, but the cinnamon yogurt is freaking awesome
Dinner: steak and broccoli
Snack: mary’s gone crackers w/ kefir cheese spread

P.P.S.  I think I’m going to start drink evoo by itself, I’m told I’m supposed to be doing that anyway

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Day 30 January 10th

            Day 30 is almost like a milestone or something right? It’s the average length of a month, it’s a nice round number and I’m feeling pretty great today.  I don’t know why or how to explain what this feeling is.  I don’t understand it or where it came from (I have a couple of theories).  It feels like smiling on the inside (this is an extremely rare feeling for me and it doesn’t ever last…uh oh I’m starting to get depressed again…no stop it, I want to be happy).  Here are my three theories that may have something to do with this feeling or may have nothing to do with this feeling but I guess that’s why there call theories. 
Theory 1.  I’ve been talking to my little youngest brother (he’s like 22 or something so I guess he’s a grown ass man at this point) for the last couple days about writing and things or this nature and just the idea of writing something gets me a little excited (that’s before reality reminds me that I’m tired…and there’s a new season of Justified starting in a couple of weeks…that’ll take up some time).  Also, I really miss my brother because he moved far away (1 ½ hours…not that far I suppose).  So it’s nice to talk to him about something that we are both passionate about.
Theory 2.  I started writing again (it’s been two months) on my other blog two days ago and telling the world how much I hate football made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside (  Maybe my brain needs to get thoughts out so that it can move on to something else.  I know that this blog is important and necessary for my continued dieting “success”, but occasionally it gets a little boring and it’s really hard for me to stay on topic (that topic being weight loss and healthy eating…which I rarely talk about…sorry).  Someone actually suggested that I change the title of the blog the “Eric and His Mental and Physical Health” (which is better than my alternate title “Eric is a whiney bitch who whines too much about his stupid problems that are stupid” [and it’s shorter too])
Theory 3.  Maybe my body is getting used to the diet and it is making me feel better (fingers crossed).
Theory 4.  I did get 30 extra minutes of sleep last night and that could have been it.
Theory 5.  I just found out that the new shins album comes out on March 20, first one since winter of 2007.  I don’t care if you care, it makes me happy
Theory 6.  It’s none of these things or actually all of these things combined or a brain tumor.
Well, there are my theories about my unexplained happiness this morning, let’s hope it holds for the rest of the day.  Nope it didn’t…not really, I’m back to being depressed again and annoyed at everything again.  I weighed myself and I haven’t lost a pound this year so far…Whatever.  After lunch today I tried to get some work done but I kept getting distracted by employees and meetings and other things that I guess were technically work but not the work that I needed to get done.  Oh well, I just need to focus on getting things done before I get in trouble.  My brain really hates me.  Also, my stomach and chest are hurting a lot more than usual do to, what I can only guess is, stress.  I’m putting a ton of pressure on myself to do something with my life that isn’t as meaningless as all of this (maybe not a lot of pressure…I guess I could stop watching so much television) (TV is easy though and writing is hard for me because of my brain damage, see:,, and
            I don’t know what time I’m going to bed tonight because I’m finishing this right after dinner instead of waiting until morning, if anything interesting happens between now and morning I guess it will go on tomorrow’s post (don’t get your hopes up)

Eric Anderson

P.S. Here’s what I ate on Day 30:
Breakfast: same as it ever is
Lunch: same as yesterday
Dinner: baked chicken and steamed broccoli                                                               

P.P.S. If anyone has ever posted a comment on any of my posts let me know if you’ve seen my responses because I have responded exactly 83.4% of the time and I would hate to hear that you haven’t been seeing my wonderful words.

P.P.P.S. “42.7 percent of all statistics are made up on the spot”-Steven Wright

P.P.P.P.S. “happiness is not a fish that you can catch”-Our Lady Peace album title (I know it’s weird)

Day 29 January 9th

            I was awakened this morning by my wife screaming in a panicked voice “what are you doing?!?”  well, now I’m having a heart attack, but I was sleeping…pretty soundly, I might add.  I guess I forgot to set my alarm and it was only 3 minutes passed so I made it to work fine just a little later than usual.  I’m not getting enough sleep at night which is mostly due to poor time management, but it’s hard to cram everything into the 3-4 hours I have after work.  I felt horrible this morning too, I think the breathing machine ran out of water so my mouth, nose, throat and lungs were all sore and dry and I thought I was dying.  After I drank some tea and water I felt better so I guess I’m okay now.
            My sandwich is easier to choke down if I separate the top and bottom piece and eat them each individually like toast or something like that.  It really sucks, I was in good writer mood today but I didn’t really do much with it because I have a job to do.  I tried to weigh myself but the scale wasn’t working because, I think, the batteries are dead.  I don’t feel like I’ve lost any weight and it’s probably best for me not to confirm that suspicion anyway.  I wasn’t all that hungry tonight after dinner and the dinners I’m eating now are way less than they were a month ago (I could eat an entire medium pizza…mmmm pizza….now I’m hungry again).  I finally went to bed before 10:30 tonight, now I need to shoot for 9:30, but that will be hard because I have stuff to do (that’s not true)

Eric Anderson

P.S. Here’s what I ate on Day 29:
Breakfast: what do you think I ate?
Lunch: bird seed sandwich, yogurt, nuts, cheese stick
Dinner: spaghetti squash w/ sugar free spaghetti sauce, mozz cheese, black olives and steamed broccoli

P.P.S. do they make a gluten/sugar/yeast free pizza?  That sound gross, never mind

Monday, January 9, 2012

Day 28 January 8th

            I woke up at 6:25 (slept an extra hour today) after going to bed at about 10:45 (this time it was just because I’m a slacker and didn’t get ready for work until late, oh well).  I got to work just before 7:00 to get some stuff done for a report that’s allegedly super crazy urgent, I was finished before 7:30, but decided to stay and skip church today for two reasons.  The first reason is that there are other humans there and my ability to get along with other humans lately has been severely lacking.  The second reason is that I have a pile of paperwork so high that I could make a small fort out of it (you know for kids) and if I don’t do it now I don’t see how It doesn’t get me fired (it’s really hard for me to concentrate on paperwork when all of my employees are here, because they are a needy bunch of people, not that I’m not, I know my boss has wanted to throw me out of his office on more than one occasion).  I need to make a list of what needs to get done so that I don’t forget my mission then I need to focus and just freaking do it, but first I need to cut my damn finger nails (I cut myself this morning and it’s also really hard to type)(I know it’s kind of gross, sorry).
            I got home at 2:00 and chilled and watched the movie contagion (excellent flick, but scary as shit and now [minor spoiler alert] I think I might have bat-pig flu).  I’ve been feeling sick for a few weeks now and I’ve been powering through but it sucks.  It was kind of hard for me to eat lunch today and I had to force myself to eat dinner so either my stomach is shrinking or I have a tumor (I know there are probably other options but I like to go from one extreme to the other for dramatic and/or comedic effect [I really need to learn the difference between affect and effect, I should know that by now])  So that’s my evening pretty much, I went to bed at 10:45 like a moron so that’ll be fun in the morning.  I know that this is not a very good diet blog because writing about dieting is quite boring for me, but I really am trying to get back to the point when I get off on these crazy tangents.  I will try to stay on point tomorrow…maybe…we’ll see

Eric Anderson

P.S. Here’s what I ate on Day 28 (does anyone really care at this point?):
Breakfast: duh
Snack while I was at work: think thin bar ( I know I know I’m not allowed , it’s my last one  I promise) and weird sugar free choc bar that’s approved
Lunch: quesadilla w/ mozz cheese and chicken, “Mary’s Gone Crackers” w/ kefir cheese spread, raw nuts
Dinner: 2 hamburger patties w/ mozz cheese, black olives, spaghetti sauce (sugar free) and steamed broccoli w/ garlic infused evoo

P.P.S. I shouldn’t write these things when I’m half asleep, and I definitely shouldn’t proofread them when my eyes are struggling to stay opened

Sunday, January 8, 2012

Day 27 January 7th

            I woke up this morning after about 5 ½ hours of sleep and I was groggy and confused and angry with myself for not going to bed sooner, but not that angry because it was totally worth it.  Got up, got ready (quickly) and drove to work.  I didn’t make any tea last night so I’ll probably be getting a headache sometime before lunch (that was dumb I need some caffeine, man). I went home and 10:00 because staring and paperwork isn’t productive and people keep asking me questions (I don’t like people).  This diet is not working fast enough (don’t worry I’m not going to quit), I’m thinking about starting to count calories just to see what I’m doing (It can’t be over 2000, maybe some days, but mostly there’s no way), she told me to keep it at around 2500 (seems high) and killing the candida would take a few months and then it would just “fall off” (yeah right).
            We watched a couple movies (battle Los Angeles [skip it] and The Debt [very awesome, go rent it now]) and some episodes of TV shows on the dvr or iTunes or Netflix (you know one of the many things that distract you from your life).  Then I went to bed after getting ready for work at about 10:45, still kind of hungry but that’s how you know its working, right?

Eric Anderson

P.S. Here’s what I ate on Day 27:
Breakfast: Ditto
Lunch: quesadillas w/ cheddar cheese (because my wife forgot that I’m not allowed to have it and I didn’t want to make her make it again) and tortillas, a think thin bar (that I’m not allowed to have but I still had a couple left from before I realized that I can’t and those things are too expensive to just throw away), “Mary’s Gone Cracker’s” w/ Kefir cheese spread and sea salt
Dinner: steak w/ steamed broccoli and asparagus (yuck)

P.P.S. think of something clever and send it to me because my brain is fried so I’ve got nothin’

Saturday, January 7, 2012

Day 26 January 6th

            I woke up about 35 times last night because I was upset, but I finally fell asleep only to be awakened by my alarm clock (which is actually the first time this week that has happened…so..yay?).  Today was a sleepy depressing day with more arguing about how much I suck as a human being (although it was quite a bit less arguing than the night before, and it was pretty much over by lunch so maybe this thing will go quietly into the night…until it happens again of course).
            I’ve kind of been feeling sick all week, both at my stomach ( which is because I’m evil and I hate myself…and everyone else for that matter…well, not everyone else) and in my throat/sinuses/head area.  I need to start walking but I don’t know if exercising while sick is a good idea.  I also don’t know if the only sleeping 6 hours a night has been good for me (I know a lot of people do it and are fine, but it’s making me nuts).  I’m still starting to get hungrier every day and I just found out that I’m not allowed to have "think thin" bars because of the soy in them.  That sucks.  I knew I was allowed to have soy but I guess I overlooked that part on the ingredients.  I will stop immediately.  More celery…yum…sort of.
            I’m an idiot because tonight I didn’t go to bed until after 11 again even though I have to get up early tomorrow again.  At least this time is wasn’t to fight with anyone.  Have I mentioned that there have been some awesomely positive side effects to quitting the Prozac (side effects that probably aren’t appropriate to mention here, but awesome none the less).

Eric Anderson

P.S. Here’s what I ate on day 26
Same everything except for dinner which was baked chicken w/ garlic and pepper and steamed broccoli.

P.P.S. I was so hungry when I went to bed but I didn’t want to eat anything that close to bed time so I just ignored it like a man (although I’ve been told pretty regularly by many people including my own mother that I am not a real man…oh well, I can pretend, right?)

Friday, January 6, 2012

Day 25 January 5th

            I woke up at 5:16 again, if I was a crazy person I might try to read more into the significance of those number but I’m not so I’ll just say that’s it a coincidence and I’m sleepy.  Today was a pretty long day and I was hella tired all of it mostly because of my lack of sleep and partly because of my issues with other humans (that vague enough for you?).  I wasn’t super hungry today but I do feel like my hunger level is starting to go up a bit from where it was 2 weeks ago.  I hope it doesn’t become unbearable or distracting because I don’t think I can handle anymore distractions.  I’m pretty tired right now and having trouble concentrating on this entry.
            I stayed up ‘til a little past 11:00PM again.  This time arguing with other human beings about how much of an ass I am and how mean I have been to them, even though I see it the exact opposite I was having trouble convincing them to see it that way.  I don’t know if all this stress is good for my heart.  I couldn’t really sleep at all tonight.  I might have to quit my church and maybe even move out of town, this is quite a mess.

Eric Anderson

P.S. Here’s what I ate on Day 25:
Breakfast: The same exact thing I’ve eaten everyday of this diet, but I love it because I am a creature of habit
Lunch: same, don’t love it quite as much
Snack: same
Dinner: spaghettis squash w/ sugar free spaghetti sauce, mozz cheese and black olives.  Also, steamed broccoli

P.P.S.  What do you do when you know that you have a valid point and you feel all the way down to your core that you are absolutely right, but you may have gone too far when you were trying to get that point across?

Thursday, January 5, 2012

Day 24 January 4th

            I woke up at 5:16AM again for the second day in a row.  It’s weird because I rarely ever wake up before my alarm and if I do it’s because the time changed or some other nonsense like that.  It really sucks to have an argument with yourself about whether or not it’s better to just get up or try to get 9 more minutes of sleep (I chose to split it and just lay there for 5 minutes and then got up and still bumped into things trying to get ready). 
            Today was an okay day diet wise, I wasn’t too hungry and even though it was still very difficult to swallow my sandwich, I managed and got on with my day.  I was sleepy all day, kept yawning while people tried to talk to me, It’s been the busiest two days of my life, I guess people really missed me over the holidays because everyone seems to feel the need to update me on their lives (when people ask how I’m doing, I direct them to this blog, most of them don’t have computers though).
            I went to bed an hour late tonight because my mom came over and we talked for a long time about the current issues in my life.  I’m really going to regret that in the morning. Oh well

Eric Anderson

P.S. here’s what I ate on Day 24:
Breakfast: Same as yesterday
Lunch: Same as yesterday (cinnamon in the yogurt is actually quite awesome, who knew?)
Snack: Same
Dinner: 2 Hamburger patties with mozz. Cheese and spaghetti sauce no olives (don’t ask why) and steamed broccoli

P.P.S. I get most of the healthier and weirder item I eat from Central Market or Sunflower Shoppe in Fort worth, TX, but a friend has recommended Town Talk in Fort Worth, which I will be checking out when I get a chance.  There are healthy options at wal mart or whatever local grocery store you happen to use, you just have to look really hard and pay close attention to the labels.

P.P.P.S.  The main reason eating healthier is more expensive is because buying foods without preservatives and healthy junk like that is more expensive because they don’t mass produce it.  In general, fruits and vegetables are more expensive than a box of Twinkies or potato chips.  Hamburger helper and mac and cheese are the easiest things to make and super cheap and totally horrible for you.  Free range eggs, goat’s milk, any meat without nitrates, and things of this nature tend to be more expensive, however the options now seem to be much better than they were 10 years ago, so that’s a plus.

P.P.P.P.S. I just wanted to see how many Ps I could get on this thing

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Day 23 January 3rd

            I woke up at 5:16AM (9 minutes before my alarm was set to go off); it’s my first day of work this year.  I guess I was excited, not sure why (maybe petrified is a better word).  I was pretty groggy and still kind of sick, but not too bad.  It was weird today, because I was hungry at breakfast time and then not really hungry for the rest of the day.  My insides are so confusing to me right now.  It took me like an hour to eat that sandwich, partly because everyone and their dog interrupted me during lunch (because I’m so popular) and partly because I was just not feeling hungry at all.  I don’t want to skip meals because I know that’s not good for you.  This is one of the strangest feelings I’ve ever had.  I’m still craving sweet stuff whenever I hear it mentioned or see it somewhere, but that’s got to be mostly psychological, right?  I need to drink more water.
            Towards the end of the work day I started to feel tired and sore in the bones of my legs.  This has actually been happening for a long time, but I’ve mostly just ignored it.  I’m not on them that much I just figured it was because of my horrible health.  I went home and just chilled and thought about why I can’t seem to get along with…well anyone really.

Eric Anderson

P.S. Here’s what I ate on Day 23:
Breakfast: Quinoa w/ eggs, broccoli, tomatoes, evoo, and sea salt
Lunch: “Food for Life” yeast & gluten free bread sandwich w/ kefir cheese spread, tomato, and shredded chicken. A cheese stick ½ mozz. Cheese and ½ cheddar cheese (I know I’m not allowed to have the cheddar, trying to get rid of inventory), plain yogurt w/ stevia and cinnamon, and 2 oz. raw almonds and pecans
Snack time: blueberries, celery, broccoli, and tomatoes. A think thin bar
Dinner: steak and steamed broccoli

P.P.S. that sounds like more food than it actually is

P.P.P.S. I’ve been told that, if my wedding pictures are any indication, I should stay fat because I’m an ugly skinny guy. Oh well, I can’t win

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

Day 22 January 2nd

            I woke up at 9:43AM, after a night of not sleeping very well, on account of someone upsetting me right before I went to bed and this illness that’s destroying my very soul, I do however feel better this morning (except for in my guts where the anger lies).  It’s the second day of the year and I have to go back to work tomorrow (I’m ecstatic about that).
            Okay, health related subjects only, now, I felt mostly awful today, but that might have something to do with me not getting off the couch (Chuck marathon on my dvr)(I think I overuse commas, I’m not completely sure about comma rules so I just throw them in anywhere I feel a pause is warranted).   That was pretty much my day, Chuck and video games (it’s my last day off, man).  Hopefully tomorrow will be better (probably not, I went to be late again)

Eric Anderson

P.S. here’s what I ate on Day 22:
Breakfast: maybe I should take a picture
Lunch: Mary’s Gone Crackers and kefir, also a think thin bar that I’m not sure if I’m allowed to have or not.  I’ll ask Toni
Dinner: hamburger patties w/ mozz. Cheese, spaghetti sauce and black olives w/ steamed broccoli (which we didn’t eat until 9:00pm, part of the reason I went to bed late and why I couldn’t sleep tonight [I don’t like to eat right before bed])

P.P.S.  I started taking some wellness pills by source naturals tonight, we’ll see if that cures what ales me