Well we were awakened at 8 am after 7 hours of sleep by
the child who wants the presents under the tree. She was happy so I guess that’s all that
should matter, but I’m pretty miserable because we couldn’t afford to buy
anyone else presents including each other.
I know it’s childish for me to want something for Christmas but it’s how
I feel and I’m not going to lie about that.
Maybe it’s the effects of the chemicals in my brain, because of the
change in meds a week ago, but today was a horrible day for me.
We went to my parents’ house after we finished watching
Amira and Gideon open their presents (Gideon pretty much ate the paper while
Amira opened his presents). Amira got a
bunch more presents there and everyone was having a great time except for me
because I’m a horrible selfish person who’s broken inside.
We came home and watched 3 movies right in a row (Kung Fu
Panda 2, Shrek Forever After, and Transformers Dark of the Moon) all of which
were good enough to take my mind off of my miserableness. Then we went back to
my parents and everyone ate dinner while I played with Gideon.
Here’s the weird part, I didn’t eat any dinner and I wasn’t
hungry at all. I guess being pissed off
inside curbs your appetite. Maybe that’s
a good thing.
Eric Anderson
P.S. Here’s what I ate
on Day 14:
Breakfast: same
Lunch: same
Dinner: nothing
No, I don't think its childish to want something for Christmas. I still do and I'm a lot older than you!
ReplyDeleteYou maybe selfish and broken inside but all of us are either there or have been there. You can do something about it. Let God have His way in you. He is the only one who can fix what is broken.
curbing your appetite is good but being pissed off is not.