Saturday
was a wash, I woke up super late, went to work for a couple of hours, came home
and watched a bunch of TV and played a whole bunch of video games (just one
game but a lot of it [also, someone made me watch the screaming easily bored baby]). I think that the exercise might actually be
helping my stress levels more than I had originally thought. That night I had, what I felt like was, an
anxiety attack just lying in bed staring at the ceiling. It’s only been two days off, what the crap is
wrong with me? Usually during the walk I’m
only thinking about walking, trying not to pass out from an asthma attack,
whatever podcast or music I’m listening to, and why I’m so damn thirsty. Then after the walk I’m too tired to care
about anything else in the world so it is kind of a stress reliever. As for the anxiety attack, I don’t know, I
started taking GABA back in December and they went away until now. I’ll be lying there trying to fall asleep and
my heart will beat really hard (not fast, just one deep hard beat). Then I’ll start to panic that there’s
something wrong with my heart which makes it start to beat faster on top of the
weird deep beat that’s still happening every thirty seconds or so. The way I combat this is to take deep breaths
until I pass out.
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Sunday
was a good day as far as diet and exercise are concerned. I got up early and went to work for a couple
of hours, as is now my routine (yay, no days off ever), then went home and
decided I should go to the track because I hadn’t been since Thursday night
instead of going to church which I wouldn’t have made it to any way (needed a
shower and clothes weren’t clean). I
walked 8 laps (4 where I was pushing myself and 4 where I was just walking, but
not that slowly) at about 45 minutes. It
was nice out and there were very few people, a couple of old dudes going slower
than me, an old dude going much faster than me (and he was walking), and two
kids who were racing each other on the straights and walking the curves (that
was entertaining to watch over and over as they passed me several times
[sarcasm!]) It was a pretty decent walk
that didn’t tire me out too much but I did have to keep bargaining with myself
to motivate myself to keep going. I’m so
weak.
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I don’t
think that I had that many carbs all day except for some corn tortillas for
lunch (only on weekends). I think I’m
giving up crackers all together now for two reasons, first, they are way too
high in carbs and two, to help pay for this new Shakeology thing that I might
be trying out for a month (first month is guaranteed and if it’s as awesome as
some people keep reporting I should give it a shot). I read the ingredients (and there are a lot
of them) (see attached picture, where I highlighted the things that may conflict
with the diet that I’m not) and I didn’t see anything that seemed harmful to my
health but you can look it over too if you want. I got the go ahead from my nutritionist to
try it out and see if it has any adverse effects on my overall health, plus it
will replace the breakfast that my wife has been getting up early to make every
day for 84 days now (thanks for that, charlotte, by the way).
Sunday
night we watched the new episode of the Walking Dead (very awesome) and went to
bed, where I laid there having another anxiety attack (what?!? I exercised
today…damnit). There are two possibilities
here, one, these are not anxiety attacks at all and there is something actually
wrong with me or, two, they are anxiety attacks and my stress level has escalated
to a point that exercise and GABA can’t help (the third option is that The
Walking Dead scared the crap out of me [I don’t think that’s it though, there
was nothing scary on Saturday])
Eric Anderson
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P.S. It’s hard to take pictures while walking